18 Days In The Desert— Year Anniversary

Only someone who has gone to a yoga intensive can truly understand the unexplainable power and pure vulnerability felt during this unique journey. When you are with a group of total strangers for 18 days in the desert completely disconnected, immense layers are shed.


It has been a year since this life altering experience, even though it feels like yesterday. You cannot predict the emotions that may come up, the growth that you may find yourself having once you are driving away from the dirt road that led you into this oasis. But what you now have is what I call a “Clarity Briefcase.” The metaphor that I came up with is this: when I arrived at Shivakali I had a briefcase filled with empty files labeled: “Spirituality” “Love” “Friendship” and “Knowledge.” When I left Shivakali, all of the folders were full, even overflowing! I walked away with this imaginary briefcase full of depth and understanding that I now walk with, every step of the way.


During this 18 days we were not just going deep and shedding layers, we were studying everyday in-order to receive our 200 hour teacher training certificate. In the weeks that followed the training, I got my first teaching job at incredible studio called The Springs in Downtown Los Angeles Arts District. I got to discover that I could in-fact teach and that I loved it. I went through immense realizations within my reality and work. I was desperate to figure out how to blend my newly awakened spiritual knowledge and figure out a way to blend it with my love for the arts & fashion. That is when I started working at the amazing conscious lifestyle magazine The Good Trade. In the midst of all of this, I got engaged!! This year has been such a beautiful journey of finding alignment in this massive city and how I now feel I fit. Coming to terms with the layers that were unraveled and continuing to build the new layers of myself, have all been part of this incredible journey.


I will forever be grateful for how this training propelled me into the next chapter into my destiny. I am excited for the ideas I have for continuing to incorporate my studies into my life and dedicate myself to my practices. Finding out ways I can share with others in order to move forward in what we call Bodhicitta (the end of suffering for all). 


Photos by: Farhad Samari

Cleansing The Auric Field While Wearing Vintage Trousers

Recently I have been experiencing a heightened sense of intuition in my daily life. For instance, I see 11:11 everyday, sometimes twice a day. I’ll think of a friend and that friend will text me seconds later. I’m listening to Spotify in my car, hear a song, look at the artists name and then I drive by a billboard with that artist. It’s all little things, but enough coincidences to make me feel super connected to the world and energies around me. It's only when you are truly  present, that you can really observe these intuitive moments. I don't necessarily believe they mean anything dramatic or life changing, rather that the universe is letting me know that everything is aligned.


Since I’ve been feeling more in touch with my intuition, I have also been craving wearing white or light colors. I thought maybe it was because of spring, or because I am getting married in a couple months. Then I read this article about Yogi Bhajan's philosophy. His belief is that by wearing white we expand our auric energy fields. I’ve talked about aura before but never considered how we can cleanse our energy through the colors that we wear. It makes so much sense that wearing white has the ability to more easily reflect our purest aura, along with offering open and clean healing to those around you. Once I read this, I felt the correlation between my heightened intuition and the need to wear colors that reflect that openness. And, I really love how that feels!

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Now, what does any of this have to do with vintage trousers? Well not a whole lot except that within this realm of intuition and auric energy, there comes a point where being able to move and feel comfortable is important. I love vintage trousers for a couple reasons. 1. They are typically made out of natural fibers such as wool & cotton. 2. They are typically tailored. 3. They are loose and structured at the same time. Yogi Bhajan also speaks about the importance of wearing natural fibers. Through my concept of COINCIDE— wearing clothes that are fashionable but also give you the freedom to move freely. I love that these looks reflect my style but if I wanted to do yoga in them, I totally could! All the while spreading a clean, intuitive energy field.



Pink & Beige trousers-Vintage/Second-hand

White Linen Blouse- CP Shades

White Boob Tee-Nude Ethics

Jewelry- Charme Silkiner

Pink FlatsEverlane

Heeled SandalsNisolo

Photos by: Felicia Lasala

What Does Planning A Sustainable Wedding Mean?

Planning a sustainable wedding begins with the the mentality of wanting to avoid the consumerism that is the wedding industry. The process requires asking yourself and your loved one important questions with the goal of keeping you both grounded and to remain authentic to your core values. I decided to share some of the questions Cole and I have been asking ourselves during this process. And, since we are more than halfway until the big day, I wanted to share our engagement photos that I am so incredibly excited about to get a glimpse into our aesthetic! 


at the end of this day, do you want to be left with piles of trash or recycled handmade goods that can be used again?


Will you ever get to wear your wedding gown again?


How was your gown made? why is it so expensive?

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Are there ways to find the decor through recycled good stores, online or at flea markets? 


At the end of this day, did you create things that can be used again?


Keeping these questions in-mind, the day is about love instead of a day that creates more waste, honoring our sacred love for the earth.

I plan on sharing our whole process after the wedding and will be excited to give more of the specifics,  but for now, I don't want to give too much away! 

Photos By Memry 

Green Dress: Reformation

Secondhand blanket shawl

Handmade crown from my parents backyard :) 

Its All About The Find

To follow up on my last post talking about fair trade and sustainable shopping , I want to share my story on this mindset and give some tips as well!


The phrase “It's all about the find” has become one of my mottos in life. My mindset with shopping use to be  “I have a place to go, I need new shoes, a dress, and a jacket”. I would head to the closest Forever 21, Zara, or do overnight shipping online. I admittedly became obsessed with buying new and buying often. I truly felt that in order for me to feel my best, I needed to have the latest trend or look as  polished as possible. However, after some time, something in me shifted.  I started noticing the overwhelming amount of wardrobe choices actually caused a creative blockage because I just had a lot of clothes lacking their own story, as opposed to timeless staples. I began purging pieces  and in that process, I discovered online resale websites where I could make money for my finds.

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Then I started a habit- I would only buy something new if I sold something old. That propelled me into a completely new way of shopping


I began to discover  the incredible finds at local second hand stores and  vintage stores. I became more aware that  instead of buying in the moment I could wait and  buy when I found something truly timeless and special. I became more patient and intentional about taking time to find the right thing.


THEN my world was rocked, I watched the documentary True Cost and realized the devastation that the fashion industry has had on our world. I felt 2 things when the movie ended: 1. Ashamed for being in the fashion industry and supporting fast fashion. 2. While I know that fashion is a part of my soul, I knew I had to take steps so that I was not part of the problem.

Below are some ways you can incorporate this lifestyle easily into your life!

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  1. Shop second hand- most of these stores only take slightly worn pieces that are either fast fashion or designers (pro tip: do not feel bad if you find a fast fashion piece at a second hand store and want it! It’s way better than it ending up in a landfill or trash island somewhere.)

  2. Shop vintage- vintage means something that is at least 20 years older than the current decade. To find an amazing vintage piece you want to look at the label, its really easy to tell when a label looks aged or out-dated. You also want to look at where it is made. A lot of great vintage is USA made (like denim, which is my favorite vintage staple) and that is always really exciting.

  3. Supporting your friends’ small businesses- I have a lot of friends who are making everything on their own buying local and selling. Either suggest a trade to get the pieces or purchase them! These hand dyed silk tops are from my friend Allison who hand dyes natural fabrics like silk and cotton with flowers and plants HOW MAGICAL IS THAT?!



Black trousers, belt & camel jacket-Vintage

Green PantsReformation 

Brown Hat-Second Hand (no label) 

Boots-Restored second hand Sam Edelman

Hand dyed silk topsAllison Lei

Photos byCasey Fyfe

Do I have To Wear Spandex?

I am a huge advocate for recycled fashion, specifically vintage and consignment. I love the find of a great piece and the story that comes with it. I don't want to project any kind of negativity around the yoga-wear industry, but I have had a hard time connecting with the silhouettes and materials that are often found within yoga apparel. This got me thinking, what can we wear to yoga and in our spiritual practices that maybe feels a little more unique or individualistic? Once you think about it, there are endless possibilities. I am now on a journey to search for garments that I feel great wearing, can do yoga in, and are sustainable, fair-trade, organic or recycled.  


When I found these vintage linen culottes from a local flea market, I was so excited because I knew I would not only be able to wear them to yoga, but also dress them up for other life activities!


The top is also linen and a piece from Reformation. Reformation is one of the amazing clothing companies that is  leading the way in the fair-trade clothing movement. This way of shopping has created a more minimalistic and conscious way of looking at the clothes I wear and has expanded my creativity.


As I experiment with my wardrobe and begin to expand this practice with others, I look forward to what the future holds!


Clothing from: Reformation & Vintage

Photos by: Casey Fyfe

Practicing Santosha

In a society that pushes us to always be learning, striving and busy, what does it look like to simply be content with who we are and what we have?  What would being content with ourselves look like if we could take time each day to simply be? To live present in our surroundings, remove judgment of ourselves and others,  and to recognize all that we have right in front of us. How could contentment  help us to connect deeper with those around us? Would it look more bright? More kind? More joyus? More full of love?


Santosha-  in Sanskrit translates to "complete or content" studied as one of the 4 branches of the Niyamas (observances). Read more about the 8 limbed system here. The concept of contentment is not typically something that is readily talked about or practiced in western society but is crucial in finding balance and peace within ourselves.


To begin bringing more Santosha into our day, start with this simple meditation, saying: “I am content.  I am grateful for what I have and for what I don’t have.  I learn from the dark and the light that life brings me.  I honor the light in myself and others.  I refrain from criticism and faultfinding.  I accept life just the way it is.  I love my life.  I honor and practice loving kindness, and compassion.” When you feel your mind focusing too much on the past and future, escaping from the present, bring yourself back with this meditation.


Through this shift in perception, we can begin to train our minds to see reality a little bit different. In practising this Niyama, I have begun to already feel more joy and peace coming into my life!

Clothing from: www.tobi.com

Photos by Felicia Lasala



The Magic Of Intention

Before I started teaching yoga and would go to class as a student, the teacher would talk about “intention setting” at the beginning of class. Until recently, I didn’t fully understand what that meant.

How the “intention” process works:

  1. Think of a clear path, a concept for where you would like to see yourself.

  2. Listen deeply to your heart and start making moves towards satisfying your hearts intention.

  3. Once you start moving down that path, the universe begins to recognize which direction you are moving and miraculously you start to see the pieces come together.

  4. This is when manifestation begins.


This all sounds easy right? Not so much, but it is real. Most of  the time it requires a huge leap. I understood this process when I took the leap to get certified as a yoga teacher. I had been asking the universe for more ways that I could bring yoga into my life. And bam! just like that, as soon as I took the leap that lead me to get certified (read my post about that here), these things that I had been seeking started to unfold.

I have spent a large portion of my life trying to control each and every facet. Trying to see, exactly where I want to be. I have struggled at times when things haven’t worked out, but I’ve always tried to remember that this is part of the process. As Deepak Chopra says “detach from the known, step into the unknown, and surrender our desires to the creative mind that orchestrates the dance of the universe.”

This process takes courage and now that I have seen it in action, I want to help others understand it. We can never fully know what will happen, but if we listen close, the path will unwind.

Photos By: Casey Fyfe

Clothing: Between Ten 

Color Your Energy

When someone says, “you have a great Aura” what does that really mean? Scientifically, the human Aura is defined as: “the distinctive atmosphere or quality that seems to surround and be generated by a person, thing, or place.” This energy field is also called the Subtle Body. This energy has been studied not only by spiritual practitioners such as energy healers and acupuncturists, but also scientists. There is no doubt, that we as living things, possess an energy that we send out into the world. This energy could be seen through a certain color, or simply by exuding one’s own general state of being onto those around them.

We all have come into contact with a person who seems to “steal” our energy or make us not feel so good. You can look at this as their aura being off balance. Alongside, we come into contact with the opposite - people who bring us joy or a sense of calm. This is another's energy working for the greater good or their aura is in balance. In my understanding of Auras, the colors used to define what we interpret as the Aura energy that we see/feel, are the  colors radiating through our Chakras. Chakras are the energy fields inside of the body, located in 7 different parts of the body. For instance, someone's Aura may radiate a calming open feeling and maybe they seem to have a cooler color tone to their overall appearance, they may be radiating from the heart Chakra that is the color green.

I have always been told that I have a sunny personality, and that my bubbly personality can bring a contagious joyus feeling with the people I am around. In the last few years, I have grown to love different shades of yellow, along with the citrine stone which is yellow in color. Though, I personally cannot see aura energy fields, I know I can feel them. And I believe that my aura is yellow and I my overall energy field comes from a place located in my center which is my Solar Plexus Chakra. The Solar Plexus Chakra is often depicted as yellow as well, thus supporting the energy field that I am most connected to. We should always try our best to put out the most positive vibrations into the world and while you're at it, It's fun to think about what your color might look like.


Dress from Reformation

Photos by Felicia Lasala

18 days of turning inward

In life, we must nourish the many parts of ourselves. By honoring the different sides we help ourselves to become as  whole as possible as we move forward in this existence. For years, I have been creating my life in Los Angeles, paving the  path towards my dreams and doing my best to follow that path.. However, one major pursuit still stands; my yearn to nourish my yogi heart and become certified to be a yoga instructor.

A year ago, while doing research for an article for WOMN Magazine, I discovered Shivakali Yoga and their 18 day desert retreat/teacher training. The retreat caught my eye because of its modern, “cool” and yet totally spiritual way of talking about what the retreat has to offer.. I reached out to one of the founders Serge and  we arranged for me to come for 4 days and 4 nights to write an article for the magazine. I went with eyes and ears of a journalist, planning to just observe, not get too emotionally invested into the whole experience. You can read about what I learned and ended up experiencing here. Long story short, I had to come back this year to experience the full 18 days.

 My mantra for my 18 day journey: “change is crucial for growth, we must take risks to experience change.” As we all know, however, risks and change are scary.  There is the fear of life after the change. There is also the fear of trusting yourself during the experience. Part of this process, is knowing how to evolve, honoring all of the  aspects of our being in order to create something that is whole within ourselves.

 I am diving into this incredible experience tomorrow. I will be without social media, no service completely disconnected but entirely connected to myself and the other yogis that will be attending this journey with me.

 Wish me luck and stay tuned, I will be back in 18 days.

 The song that really sums up my feelings is  Changes by Longhorne Slim & The Law from their album The Spirit Moves.

Photos by Memry